Tuesday, May 27, 2008


So I'm doing the backpacking thing and it's totally true what they say about total strangers abroad being close. I'm hanging out with a Canadian and my friend Chris and I'm equally comfortable with each of them. We're talking about our grandmothers' mortality and past relationships and it's so open. It's so intimate and scary to be alone, so we cling to each other, in this strange place. That's all we can do.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Ah, the Muse


I'm working on writing my novel, or rather I'm sitting here blogging instead of writing my novel because it's really easy to get distracted. I think I have to become one of those "first-thing-in-the morning" writers because the 3-4 pm time is really my most useless time of day (and yes, you may point out that it's only a quarter to 2 and I'm still rather useless, aren't I?). I was so good last week and wrote a lot, even 12-15 pages at one sitting, but I know I need to just sit down and pound it out. It's feeling a lot like my thesis. The word /thesis/ sits pretty heavily down on me as a new topic that caused (a) a lot of procrastination in starting it (b) a lot of procrastination in doing it (c) the feeling that when I did it, I ought to be more monumental that what I actually had to say and (d) a certain degree of stiffness in the writing because, after all, it was my THESIS. I think the same thing goes with writing a novel. Somehow I'm more embarrassed to tell people that I'm writing a novel than that I'm working on some short stories or something. I think it's because a short story is something someone can just do for a lark while writing a novel evokes a certain degree of authorial solemnity.

The point being... I just have to get it done. It doesn't have to be that good because it probably won't be that good because of the hugeness of the word novel, but once I get it down then I can finally get comfortable with the idea that I can just write up novels sometimes. This is just a practice run of writing something long and finished. I've started other projects of writing a novel, but finished seems to be the hardest part. So even though I just want to sit here and blog instead of working on the novel itself, I just ought to pound out some pages, even if they're dumb and get closer to the end of this monstrosity, or (as I called my thesis), the big slouching beast.

In other news, however, the poetry manuscript is going swimmingly. It should be ready by the end of this week.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Study for the GRE and Save the World

In one easy website.

(Perhaps it's everyone besides me who knew this already.)

Monday, May 5, 2008

Because It's Summer and I Want To

Although I wrote 15 pages on my novel today, need to mow the lawn, learn Latin, buy stuff for Europe and go running, here I am...

Four Movies I could Watch over and over:

1. The Italian Job
2. The Incredibles
3. P&P, the mormon one
4. Children of Heaven

these sucked and ergo I add my own:

Four Books I could read over and over again:

1. Moby Dick
2. The Moon is Down (although I might need a little break after the thesis)
3. Flannery O'Connor's collected works
4. A series of unfortunate events (they can't all be deep)

Four Jobs I've Had:

1. BYU Bookstore Giftwrap Girl
2. American Economic History TA
3. Student Literary Magazine Editor
4. Substitute Cafeteria worker

Four Places I've Lived:

1. Provo
2. St. Petersburg
3. Provo again
4. St. Petersburg again

Four of My Favorite dishes/foods:

1. Thai food--Padd Thai is always good, and coconut curry
2. Carrot cake w/ cream cheese frosting carrots
3. Microwave salmon.
4. Margarita pizza from Costco

Four T.V. Shows I Love:

1. Monk
2. Law&Order (w/sam waterson, none of this spin-off nonesense
3. House (someday ask my about my House phase)
4. Star Trek

Four sites I visit daily:
(I visit no site daily. I'm not good at daily, but here's my most frequent:)

1. Gmail
2. BYU Library
3. Wikipedia
4. Blogspot.

Four Places I'd rather be right now:

1. Nowhere, really, I love my parents' place
2. Just West of Valaam island, swimming
3. Dave's apartment in Washington DC
4. Anywhere less overcast